Tonight I had the privilege of attending Christ Church Choir's Christmas concert (say that real fast, 9 times) with my friend Dani and her mom. From the first strains of the orchestra's opening notes, I was overwhelmed with simply knowing that this celebration was because a little baby was born...
Although there were phenomenal moments throughout the night, there was one song that absolutely rocked my world. This might seem strange to you, but I have been a huge fan of "The Little Drummer Boy" for quite some time because of one little line, "Then, He smiled at me." Love it. But tonight, I really heard what happens right before that line: "I played my best for Him." Now I don't know about you, but my eyes are filling up with tears once again. I am guilty of harboring my dreams and ambitions because I'm scared of not being the best at those lofty things I desire to be. I'm a perfectionist from way back. I've even held back my "best" from the One who gave me those dreams. I've tried to ignore them and I've tried to silence them by replaying the words of those who've told me that I just don't have what it takes to see these dreams fulfilled. But what if I just "'play' my best for Him?" I hope, with all that is within me, I hope He smiles at me. That's fulfillment enough for me.
LH
Very insightful, truly touching! Although He is the focus of the "story" in the song...He was the author of it all...
ReplyDeleteGosh Lindsay, God always knows what I need to hear, & He never fails to supply the words through others! Fist, "The Little Drummer Boy" was absolutely my favorite Christmas song when I was a child. To know that, not only did this child give what they had, but that it was enough for God!
ReplyDeleteThis Christmas season, I find myself, needing to understand just those words. In two weeks I will be singing my first ever all song solo. I have had solo lines or small speaking part, but never a full solo.And I know, you are thinking, "you will be fine", but you see, God didn't bless me with a solo voice. At one time I was a Soprano, but as I got older my voice got deeper, and now I can only sing Tenor/Baritone in the local church choir. I can read music & can harmonize, but God didn't gift me with a voice like a bird, more like Roseanne! So this step out of my comfort zone has been nerve racking, especially since at present I am dealing with a cold, and my voice is almost non-existent.
God has work so much in my life this year, that I so much wanted to give back to Him, in song,a "Thanks". I want it to be only about Him!
Lindsay, thank you for reminding me that God only wants our best, & that no matter how I sound, it is only for Him that I sing!
Love you!
Beth